So as you may have gathered, I had a less than encouraging trip to the farm today. Jazz was just weird and spooky and SASSY. Oh my god was she sassy, swishing tail, a very clear stomp of her back feet and a few pushy episodes from her shoulders, plus something new that I'll talk about in a second. It was just discouraging, and I'm sorry to admit that it just got to me today, and I got a bit frustrated. Is it too much to just ask for a couple of weeks of steady improvement, even just one week? Is that so much to want?
But I'm getting sidetracked. Here's something positive: She didn't rear. Not even close. No big dramatic 'you're killing me here' head throws or anything.
Here's something less so: she's found an alternative now that rearing is work. She tried to nip me. Five times. It's so frustrating that I almost want to scream. Would it have been so bad for her to just not have a big, dangerous avoidance maneuver for a week? a day? I tried to do the same thing I do when she tries to pop up on me, where I just yield her hind end until she really gives with both crossing her feet and bending through her body a bit. Of course she then tried to bite me while I was at her side moving her hip, but luckily I had anticipated she might, so she wasn't able to actually get her teeth on me. To be fair, she didn't actually get her teeth on me at all, they were warnings, but even so it still isn't EVEN REMOTELY ACCEPTABLE.
So needless to say I was a little discouraged and frustrated and very done by the time I let her go. It just sucks that we're taking one step forward and now what feels like about six steps back.
But to the point: as the title of this post suggests, I would like to try to put a positive spin on the day now that all of that is out of my system. I did get a bit frustrated and emotional today, but this is the first day in recent memory that that has happened. This time last year, I was also having a lot of troubles with Jazz (she really is not a January/February horse whatsoever), significantly less dramatic troubles since she had yet to add rearing and head tossing and now biting to her arsenal. Anyway, I had hit some real road blocks in our training, and I was having a hard time getting someone to help me, and I felt like I was making no progress and Jazz was regressing and it was all my fault and all that sort of very un-fun stuff to be feeling. It got to a point where I would have weeks that I didn't even want to go to work with her because I was just going to be allowing her to get away with bad behavior that I had no idea how to fix and it didn't even seem worth going to the farm just to feel useless and powerless and go home upset again.
That was supposed to be the positive part of the post. Oops. Anyways going back to the good part, compare that to this one day out of pretty much all of my recent memory where I felt things didn't go well and got a little emotional while I was working with my horse. One day. No weeks turning into about a month of no progress and endless frustration. One. Day. I guess it's not so bad as all that.
Things that are getting better # 3
Pushing emotions aside and just getting what needs to be done accomplished
That being said, Thing to work on # 3
Pushing emotions aside and just getting what needs to be done accomplished (today was big proof I'm not there yet)
Thing to work on #4
This new biting habit. Nip it in the bud (get it? nip? Oh, I'm too funny).
Plus some good things happened after I left the farm that definitely helped my mood. Look what came in the mail today!
|It's so cute! It's way tinier than I was expecting.|
|Jazz lives outside, so her stall sign lives on my Jazz wall of fame.|
|Look at it though! Adorable!|
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